t-minus one day and counting

Its here the event that we have been planning for almost six months now: THE SPA WEEKEND! Nine of my closest friends planned a 30th birthday party for ourselves. There are seven of us who turn 30 this year, 2007 and the younger two who will turn 30 in 2008 are celebrating their birthdays early with us. It just happens that we can do this all together this year, we will miss Emily but she is busy pruning her lemon tree in sunny CA! Are we blessed, of course we are. Do we all have loving husbands who want us to go and enjoy ourselves, yes we do, but we are still willing to leave the kids with them and take off. Here we go, Friday morning I will take my children to their grandparents in Ohio and then onto Heidi's for me. I get to go to the airport to pick up the two flying in and then its slumber party birthday night. Megan has been taking a cake making/fondant icing class and so I am excited to taste her handiwork. Saturday from 9-3 we are spaing it, pedicures, manicures, facials, massages, sugar scrubs, lunch provided, bathrobes for the day we will not know how to act we all deserve this bit of pampering don't you think. Saturday night dinner out and dueling pianos. Sunday a day or rest relaxation and fellowship. I do thank the Lord that he has given me wonderful friendships with wonderful girls. Check out Philippians 1:3 and you will know my true feeling for all my blessed friends. See you after my weekend of relaxation and I will be up to the challenges of being a mom and a wife and a friend.

My Nine Names

MY NINE NAMES
1. YOUR REAL NAME: Cynthia
2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle.) Cynizzle
3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal) Yellow Panther
4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, and current street) Elaine Bailey (not bad!)
5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first
name, last 3 letters of mom's maiden name) Seacyark
6. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color, favorite drink). Blue Dr Pepper
7. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, any letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, 3rd letter of you dads middle name, 1st letter of a siblings first name, last letter of your moms middle name) Yalarjn
8. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mothers middle name) Ellen
9. YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one your pets) Black Heather

Many random thoughts

Do you ever have days that your mind just swirls around so many different thoughts? I am having one of those days. I feel my head taking off in many different directions and have no idea where its going or when its going to end. I feel almost restless with all the pent up thoughts. Maybe this will help me to get rid of some of the thoughts.

We have a verbal agreement with the owner of the house we are looking into buying. I had left a message with the owner letting her know that we had contacted a bank and a lawyer but we needed some more information from her. So I am thinking about owning a home. Where am I going to put all the furniture where am I going to store all my things. Around and around my head goes where it will stop no body knows.

I am getting excited for my weekend away. I have a very close knit group of friends from college and we are getting together to celebrate our 30th birthdays. (Two of the girls are younger and they are just coming along to humor us old ones but I am so excited they will be there.) It is a much needed break. From being lonely, with only my toddlers to talk to, from being a mommy, don't you find that a few days away gives you the drive to go back home and conquer the mommy world! I just can't wait.

Anyone know any good books? I am out of good books right now, nothing seems to catch my interest and I am looking for something to read. Please leave your suggestions!

Its good to be home

Its good to be home from my weekend away. Its good to sleep in my own bed again. Are you like me in that the first couple nights in a new place or on a different bed tends not to lead to the best sleep? (Besides the fact that your children are in a new place too and they don't sleep so well so you have them in bed with you at 3 a.m. and a dog who decides she's cold so would also like to sleep with you.)

Here in snowy Sherman I again don't want to leave my house and go out in the cold weather so we stay inside and the kids are about ready to pop they just want to go somewhere. I don't really want to take them out because I don't want to go in the snow and they have nasty coughs that I don't want to deal with outside the home either. They are driving me crazy though. I spent around 15 minutes making a purple construction paper alligator for Derek, he saw one on the cover of the construction paper booklet, only to have him get bored with it in 15 minutes and end up ripping it up and throwing it away. Needless to say wasted time, and I hate to waste my time. That's why I sit here on the computer and type away!

They have discovered the joys of having a sibling to fight with. I don't get it one minute they are hugging and cuddly the next they are wrestling around on the floor bashing each other off the bean bags and furniture. Some of it is malicious and some of it is just something to do, but I will need to curb the wrestling/fighting today!

We are in the midst of a bidding battle. Who will hold out who will win? This for me is one of the hardest things. My husband makes the financial decisions in our family. I am sometimes left without very much knowledge as to what is going on for us financially. Patience is not the strongest virtue of mine either and so here I sit in a quandary: will he make a bid, how much will he bid, will they accept this new offer, is there a middle ground here or is this the end? For those of you who have bought a house before you can understand what I am saying. For those of you who don't own a home or just built one its no fun this bidding game. I would like the issue to be settled and into a new house by March. To much to ask? (I really don't know the answer to that question, it might actually be totally unreasonable to think.)

Anyway here I sit with out any writing on the wall. Do you think the new Christians who saw the fiery finger writing on the wall to tell them what they should do understood the privileged they had? I know that faith and trust are important and waiting upon the Lord for answers is what He is asking me to do today so I will surrender to his will and call on him for the strength and endurance to make it through the bidding war and accept the answers what ever they may be.

The waiting game

Well we have put a bid on a house in the village of Sherman. For those of you who are new to my blog I live in western New York, which by the way is absolutely nothing like New York City even though my vote in an national election means nothing because the democrats totally dominate our state, in a small dairy community. The Town of Sherman isn't even big enough to be called a city. There are about 1500 people who live in Sherman, that might be an over guess too, where the school is located they call the village. Our church is in the village too. Actually almost everything we do except swim is in the village. (We swim in a pond by our trailer right now and the neighbor's pool, they live 1/4 of a mile down the road.) We are making a big decision to put a bid on a house but it really is time. I want to live in the village. I would have friends who would be my neighbors and also everything would be in walking distance. Wow would it save on gas. Also it would just be a change in scenery for the better for me. I am tired of my four little walls and in a house I could let my personality out. For the longest time in this trailer Tim did not want me to waste my time in making this a home I was proud of, meaning painting the walls. Just this fall though he finally relented and said it was okay if I painted our bathroom and bedroom. I did the bathroom in a celery green color and the bedroom in a forest green color. They both turned out really nice and there are no more flowers and stripes on the walls any more. That is the luxury I am looking for in moving into a house. The house is old but it could take on my personality easier than a trailer could. So pray they they will either accept the bid or make us a counter offer that we can afford.

On another note I have been getting kind of strung out with my kids lately. Maybe its the fact that we are finally snow trapped. Or maybe its the fact that I haven't had a break from them in a long time. What ever it is I am irritable! The luxury I have in my mind is that the celebration of the 30th birthdays is right around the corner. There are nine of us who have stayed in touch since we graduated from Grove City College. In the year 2007 seven of us turn 30! We decided to splurge on ourselves and have a spa weekend!! That is the happy thought that keeps me pressing on when I am tired and strung out and needing a break. A weekend of just girls, some pregnant, all married, all believers it will be an incredible weekend. I thank my God upon every remembrance of them. Philippians 1:3 Italics mine.

Me and my family going to the Dentist today!

Its been two years since Tim and I have been to the Dentist. We figured it was high time we go. The last time I went, which was before Sarah was born, I had two cavities. You can only imagine what I came home with today. Four cavities, yes thats right four cavities, and also the prospect of a root canal and crowns for my front teeth. I was in an accident when I was in middle school and have had to deal with bonding and breaking teeth and not very pretty teeth for many years. The doctor would really like me to just be done with that kind of thing and get the caps. I have to say this was the first time I was anxious about going to the Dentist. I wasn't sure what he was going to tell me and also what he was going to tell me about my son. Derek has a black spot between his teeth and I was really worried they were going to tell me his teeth were dead. The short of it is he has cavities also. Its really hard when you brush your sons teeth every day to know what else to do. I guess from what I understand bad teeth run in Tim's family so I will have to do my best to take care of my childrens teeth as best as I can. Wish us luck and give us lots of prayers=)!!

think, think, think...

Ever feel like Pooh Bear and you just think, think, think... I think and think so much through out the day. I find that there are hardly ever times in the day where my mind is just relaxed and absorbing things. Right now my husband and I are in the process of deciding if we should buy a house. Living in a single wide trailer hasn't been that bad until recently. Derek just turned four and Sarah is 2 1/2 she will be three this summer. We are just growing out of our house. We also have an 80 pound dog who takes up a ton of room herself. So the thinking thing keeps going on and on in my mind do we buy or not. Is the basement a problem or not? Is there actually anything that could be to wrong with the place that we won't buy it? Do we get a home inspector first or should we just make an offer? The thoughts go round and round in my head all day long. I really would just like to shut it off sometimes.

Derek turns 4

I can hardly believe that my son is four. I never dreamed I would see my kids past the age of four. For some reason I always believed that the Lord would return before they were four or something. But here we are and Derek is now four. I love my little son he is such a good boy. Right now he and Sarah are playing restaurant and they are making strawberry juice and calzones for each other in the kitchen. We had a pizza party at Vincenzo's which is a new restaurant that opened in Sherman. The owner is one of the members at our church and a good friend of our family. I was able to help him wiht his restaurant by making his menu for him and he has been very generous to our family. When then came home to our home and had a Diego cake. I wasn't planning on a Diego cake I was hoping to Bambi but we couldn't find any party supplies to do Bambi. We found supplies for Diego and so that is what we did. He got nice toys and games we have been playing Hungry Hungry Hippos and Guess Who? non-stop for the last few days! We only had family in the forms of My Parents, brother and his wife, and my in-laws. It was a great time and we all had a lot of fun. Derek got to eat lunch between his grandmothers and they all were very happy. So he is four and will begin school next year. Crazy I know but all in God's plan for us to grow up, yes!

Christmas...

When asked about how my Christmas was I am unsure of what to say. Christmas is a blessed time to remember the gift of a Savior in Jesus Christ, but it can be lost in the hustle and bustle of life. This year was actually very different for me personally. Did my children get gifts and really love them? Yes. Was my family together and did we share in that loving company? Yes. Did I get the gifts that I wanted? Yes, all except I really wanted a quesadilla maker and didn't get that, but... Here is where it gets tricky, Tim's Grandmother passed away a week and a half before Christmas and so there was a funeral a week before Christmas where all kinds of extended family came into town. Then Christmas being such a family time it was overshadowed a bit by spiritual tensions and spiritual conversations. Do I want to do all I can in my life to worship the one true God, obey His commands and honor Him in my life so that all others see Him in me? Yes of course I do! I love my Savior but was very challenged in some spiritual areas of my life that I feel I fall short in. So, how was my Christmas, wonderful yet overshadowed with loss and a feeling of inadequacy. I pray that next year I will say there is no more feeling of inadequacy as I strive my hardest to please my heavenly father and grow in my relationship with Him.